According to my friends, or so they say, I am gorgeous. EEEEEHHHH!!!! WRONG ANSWER!!! GUESS AGAIN! I am the ugliest creature to walk the planet. I have a GINORMOUS nose, gross brown eyes, frizzy, curly hair, and I am a fatty. Okay, I take the hair thing back. I love my curly hair, usually. I'm not morbidly obese, but I'm not super-skinny either. I know you're probably thinking "self consious much?". Yes. But it ties into my story, promise.
So today, my friend Fiona and I went to our friend Rachel's house. She's a really good photographer, and so we did some "modeling". One of the pictures of me came out "really good", so Rachel and Fiona had me set it as my profile picture on Facebook. I got a bunch of comments saying how pretty it was, but no matter how many times I looked at it, or any of the other "modeling" pictures, I couldn't see the prettiness. I know, common sad story, but, hey! Fiona kept commenting on how ugly she is, but she's like the prettiest person I know! Like, actually.
But, "modeling" is quite fun. I put modeling in quotations, because it's not really modeling when you're with friends and they just kind of style you in a very unprofessional way. But, personally, I think it's more fun that way. They do your make-up, hair, if it's your house they'll even style you! It's great, I'm telling you. And I must say, it's so fun when people even just move your hair around, it feels really good, almost like a massage on your head. Not like, in a creepy way though. I love when people play with my hair, it's great. Especially when they braid it, it's like when you scratch an itch. It's such a satisfying feeling!
So anyway, we did some "modeling" and all of Fiona's pictures came out really good, but she deleted all of them because she's "ugly". I HATE when people who are pretty say they're ugly. It's not fair! Us uglies have to sit there being all ugly and then the pretty people sit there saying "I'm so ugly!", and we're sitting there like "I wish I was HALF as pretty as you!" And then you get so self consious. Myself being the exception, the pretty people think they're ugly, and the ugly people think they're pretty. Again, I'm the exception because I am ugly, but the majority of people are like that.
And then sometimes, people only say "I'm so ugly" or "I'm so fat" just because they want someone to tell them they aren't. That bothers me too. It's like don't try and go getting attention like that. People will respect you more if you're confident. Wow, that sounds very hypocritical, but I'm an exception. I know I'm sort of pretty, oh gosh please let me be at least a bit pretty, but only sometimes. People tell me I'm beautiful, but I just can't bring myself to believe it. I'm not sure why.
So, I guess this post was just about me being self consious, but today was pretty fun "modeling". I love make-up and Rachel had some really cool stuff. She's really good at taking pictures too, so it was fun. I always have fun with her which is awesome. I have some great model friends!
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